Pain is still one of those bad four letter words in my life!  I am having one of the worst days since last year at the end of the MEGA chemo treatments.  I am do not know what is the cause of this pain entirely but I do know that it is so bad it is driving be crazy!!  I tried to ignore it this morning hoping it would go away BUT then it just got worse.  I ache from my hips down to my toes.  This could be from all the packing and moving I have been doing at work or the PT I had this week on Monday and Thursday or even just from overdoing in general.  All I know is that nothing seems to be helping so I am up.

I am on my count down to surgery... 18 days and counting!  June 15th is the day of the NEW Lynn!  This will be the final Breast Reconstruction surgery.  I will come out of this surgery a new woman and as soon as I recover from it all I will be able to say I am cancer free and move on with life without any treatments or multiple visits to doctors offices in a month.  I will LIVE again as a healthy woman who does not have to be defined by having breast cancer  but rather I will be a SURVIVOR and so proud of it!  

I was at church tonight (we went to our contemporary service for the first time) and felt so uplift by all the music and the message.  I am in such a fantastic place spiritually and I am so proud to be able to declare that because there have been times this was not the case!  

I am also blessed with such fantastic support system!  You all make this journey so much easier for me!  I will be forever thankful for each and every person who has walked with me through this journey!  I would not have made it through without each of you.  

I am finding myself coming to the end of one chapter of my life at work and realizing how much I am looking forward to the new challenge that lies ahead of me at work next school year!  I am moving to 6th grade math and am so very excited!  The first four years of teaching I began in Junior High and now to be returning to this is so fantastic!  I cannot wait to share my love of math and teaching with older students.  I hope that all my new found life lessons will also help prepare me for my change as well as be able to help those that I will teach!  I will also be going back to work full time after 9 years of being part time.  I do know that it will be exhausting at first but the thrill of the change will pull me through that I am sure!  I love to teach and I love a challenge as well as change so this is going to be one of those moments in my career that will be a milestone!

The girls are out of school and are pushing the limits at times.  They seem to feel Keith and I should entertain them every moment of the day.  This has been difficult at times but for the majority of the last few days we have all survived.  It will be great to have a couple of weeks together before surgery so I can have some fun with them before I am bed ridden and unable to do a great deal of physical activities with them.  

Changes are abundant!