Chemo #4 going better

This chemo treatment is going better for me than the others.  We talked about all the side-effects I struggle with and felt that the steroids I was taking were the problem.  We reduced the amount of those and all has been so much easier.  Ironically, the meds we reduced were supposed to help with nausea but instead for me it was increasing it and making me "mean" at times.  I am so much happier than the other Sundays after treatment.  I am still exhausted but I love not feeling so sick!!  Life is looking good today!

A new day, a new Lynn

The positive Lynn has returned!  I have had a good night sleep and am ready to face what this day has to give me!  Putting those beautiful gifts from God to bed was the best gift!  I was given such Love and happiness from them as we talked about their day and about all the fun they were going to have while I am at chemo.  They are at a friends house where they will each have a friend to play with and be distracted from the reality of our life now. 

I had my pity party last night and now I am ready to walk with my head held high into the chemo room and take my meds!  I do wish that Mary Poppins could come and make the meds be as easy as a spoon full of sugar because saline gives such a gross taste in my mouth! 

It is a great morning and I have a few more hours before chemo so I will be doing things for me that I have not been able to do.  I have a journal I keep and am going to write in it and put in a few newmementos.  I am going to watch whatever I want to on TV.  I am going to eat that last meal before food becomes near impossible to eat.  So it will be a good time until noon. 

Thank you for all your prayers and support!  Have a wonderful weekend!

Another night before chemo...

The cloud of dread has come over me tonight.  I know that tomorrow is a necessary evil in order to get to the end of the race a winner!  I just cannot convince my emotions to bypass the anxiety that the night before chemo brings. I just keep telling myself that I want this cancer to be gone which means I need to go through all of these treatments.  I guess it is normal not to want to benauseous and dizzy and stuck in bed or on the couch for four days straight.  I am sure it is no picnic to anyone to fill your body with toxins and other meds that battle each others side effects.  I am completely human to wonder if all of this is working so I know I am going through this for a good reason.  OHHHHHH! How I detest the negative me!  I do not like feeling this miserable!  But for the moment this is the state I am in and must let it pass!

The last bedtime that I will have energy to do the whole routine is upon me.  I will enjoy every moment of tucking my three sweeties into bed for the night and give them an extra special hug since it will be many days before I will be able to do this again.

Good night to all!

What a great day!

My desk at work is organized and ready to be shared with a fabulous sub!  I have been blessed to be given one person who will cover my classes when I am not able to be at school.  This person is better than I could have asked for and I am soooo thankful that the students will be provided a very consistent math education no matter who is there!  I have been lovingly referring to her as my other half at school because I know as we get farther into the treatments and closer to surgery she will end up sharing the classes with me and I am so comfortable with this!  That is saying a great deal because I am so attached to my work that I am not good at sharing usually but there is something different about this wonderful person!  She is one of my angels because she gives me such peace of mind to be able to focus on getting rid of this cancer when I am away!  No worries about what is happening when I am gone from school!

I accomplished so many things today and was able to get so much accomplished!  So much so that I am planned out for weeks with most of the xeroxing completed.... that's huge in the teaching world!!

At home I was able to make dinner, eat and clean up before I had to crash for an hour.  I am now up and about to catch up on decluttering the family room... toy heaven!  The girls really have been good about picking up but they do not pay attention to details-- like missing small pieces near the couch, putting the Barbie stuff in the correct tub, or getting all the dress up in the box and not just near the box.  I also look forward to vacuuming the rooms and the hallway to get it all clean.  It is really surreal to have almost a mental count-down to the time at which I will be down for the count.  I know that when I leave on Friday for Chemo I will be walking back in to spend the next three days in bed just trying to stay ahead of the nausea and sleep through the dizziness.  This does make me celebrate these special days I am having since I now feel this good for only a few days. 

I am still so overwhelmed by all the people who love us and have supported us throughout this journey!  We are blessed to have so many delicious meals given to us still!  We also are surprised each day by some beautiful gesture of caring and compassion from someone in our lives.  Thank you to each of you who have been one of these people!

Good night to all!

The girls and I were talking at dinner tonight about things we are thankful for and I realized that there is so much to be thankful for right now!  I am so thankful for all the wonderful friends that I have who have shown me so much love over these past few months.  So many of you have sent me wonderful cards and called me or come to see me or taken me away from the C-word for even just an hour.  So many people have given us a meal that has kept our refrigerator full and our tummies even happier.  Our family has come through for us in more ways than we can count!  Cancer could have torn us apart and made us down in the dumps at all times BUT instead we are looking at the world with a new love of life!  We are finding the good in everyday and loving all the things we get to do each day (even the small things!)!  I have refused since day one of this roller coaster to be negative.  There is really no use to give into the negativity because that would take so much more energy that I do not have!  Smiling and being happy brings in so much more energy to me that I would not choose to be any other way!  Happiness is contagious and I love to surround myself with only  these qualities.  I have realized over the past month that I have really begun to shed anything or anyone that is a negative force in my life which has been so beneficial to my well-being.  I pray for those people who do not know happiness or positivity because they are not living life to the fullest!
I have been given so many gifts along the way and am so in awe of how many different ways people have found to surprise me with such beautiful things.  This week I was surprised by a parent of one of my students who sent me a beautiful hat that was made by her sister as she knitted it she prayed for my health as she made it.  It is so sweet of her and the hat is wonderful!  I will be styling it when I head to chemo on Friday.  The prayers that have been given up for me have kept me going!  They are being answered daily as I am able to keep on going and find a way to live however I feel!

 Thank you for your generosity and your support and your love!  May we all know happiness and love all our days!

What is Chemo?

The weekend has gone fine!  The anti-biotics are in my system and I am coughing less which helps since my muscles have been hurting with all the coughing.  The naps are helping my body fight!  Last night I even saw a few family members and a few dear friends which lifted my spirits!  While I was talking with the ladies last night I realized how many people have questions about the way chemo works and even looks so I thought I would give you all a description:
The room that I have chemo in is a large cream colored room that has a nurses station in the middle of the room with about 20 hospitalreclining chairs.  It is sterile but the nurses make it as festive as possible with decorations on the IV poles like at Christmas there waspoinsettia vines hanging from them a nd now there are snowflakes hanging.  The routine for a chemo day begins with the nurses hooking up my port so they can take my blood and check for all my blood count numbers.  Once we have the numbers I go to see the doctor back in an exam room and talk about any concerns I have been having as well as what to expect with the latest treatment to come.  They also check my vitals to make sure all is going well with me before the toxins go in me.  I do love this doctors office because it is the first doctor who celebrates when I do not lose weight!  Once I have seen thedoctor a nd all is well I go back to the chemo room to begin the treatment.  I sit and get comfortable while my nurse gets all the IVs started for me.  I begin with an anti-nausea med along with a bag of saline to keep everything flowing through me.  Once the first med is done then the nurse brings over 3vials of red chemo which she has to push in me by ha nd.  It has to be monitored the whole time so that it goes in correctly because this is the dangerous med if it gets into my tissues instead of my veins.  After about 20 minutes this is done and we move on to another bag of chemo that is clear which goes for about 45 minutes.  I finish off the saline bag and then we are ready to get out of there.  My port gets detached and then we are able to leave.  It takes about 4 hours from start to finish!  During the time the chemo is going in I am able to do just about anything you can do sitting down.  I can even get up and walk to the restroom or walk back and forth if needed.  Keith and I have played cards during the 2nd treatment.  I watched "It's a Wonderful Life" during the first treatment.  I got to spend the time talking with Katie during the 3rd treatment.  We can bring in food if we want and they encourage you to be as comfortable as you possibly be.  I have been blesses to be wrapped in a purple prayer shawl each time which keeps me warm as well as comforted that I am loved!  I also bring a few things to stay positive like a picture I have carried since diagnosis of our three beautiful girls smiling together as well as a red devotional book that has found me comfort even during the scary dark days.  By the time we leave I am dizzy and nauseous but glad to be going home.  I am able to eat right when we leave (so we usually make it to our favorite hot dog joint right down the road where we catch up with the owners or the worker we have known since high school.  They are such great people who are some of my best cheerleaders since we have made this our place to stop throughout this cancer diagnosis.... Max's Dawg House is a great place to stop when you want great burgers or other food!!!)  but by about 5:30pm that is all over and I need to be home and in bed because I am SICK!  That is my day of chemo which is on Fridays.  I then spend the rest of the weekend taking pills and trying to stay ahead of all the side effects.  I am asleep a great deal so that I can get away from the feelings and try to let the meds do their thing!

I hope this helps you know that I am well taken care of and have a great team of people who are caring for me during this process!

What a day!  Home from the doctors office and have had many new adventures.  I am wheezing so I went and had a chest x-ray.  Looks like Bronchitis so we have bypassedpneumonia for now.

I am home with more meds- antibiotic and nebulizer meds.  Hope this will wipe this out of me!!!  It looks like another weekend in bed!

Common cold is not so common now

Sitting up with a cold while having cancer is a new experience!  I almost feel like I can sense the germs winning the battle with this cold.  I keep willing the mucus to go away like on the commercials but nothing seems to be working!  My sinuses are hurting and I know I have given into this illness because I am home from work today and going into the doctor hoping for a magic fix from her.

It seems the couch will be my place of choice for most of the weekend but I am thankful to have the down time!  I really wanted to have a good week this coming week since it is the one before chemo!  Life is definitely an adventure!

Life has a way of sneaking up on me!  I had such a shock this morning when I was told that a dear friends husband tragically died the night before.  It shook me to the core and reminded me of what is really important.  This father and husband was so strong and now he is gone.  His wife has been and is such an inspiration to me because when I first met her years ago she battled cancer herself and won.  My heart is broken for her as I think about being without my partner. 
This has been a reminder of what is important and who I cherish in this world.  I made sure to send Keith off to work with a big hug!  I also stayed with the girls a little longer tonight when I put them to bed.  Life is precious and it feels even more so when things like this occur.

Never been so tired!

These past few days have been very trying and tiring!  It is so hard to remember how much I used to get done in a day and now realize how little I am able to do each day.  I am happy to get up in the morning and be able to get ready for the day before I have to take a rest.  Then Iproceed to finish getting ready and go on my way.  This is the new routine for the current Lynn and I am trying to get used to it.

I now understand that I never knew what exhasution was!  It is feeling that there is not even one more once of me left to give.  It is feeling like there is a weight on my eyelids that will not give up until my eyes close.  I am trying to embrace this new realization so that when it is all over I can know that it will not happen to me like this again! 

It is so wonderful to be surrounded by such strong, wonderful people who keep me going even through exhaustion.  Every smile I am given is such a gift because those smiles bring me up in spirit and even energy level.  There are so many things for me to be thankful for tonight and I would love to be able to name them all but please know that each of you are in my thoughts and have given me such wonderful gifts through your support!  Embrace your energy and your health as they are the most precious things I can think of tonight in my heart!

Birthdays look different this year!

Birthdays have been days I like to get through since it means I am adding another year on to make me older.  This year I am looking forward to have 35 over and going on to 36 to see all we can accomplish! 

I awoke this morning to feeling sick in all sorts of the word and I wanted to stay in bed and cry for all I could not do on this day.  It would have been easy to stay in this mood but I was brought out of this when one little twin came down to wish me a happy birthday and apologize to me because she did not have a present to give me.  At that moment I realized that there is no need for presents because all three of these girls are my best presents and Keith has always been the most wonderful gift of life!  I came out of my funk and have been able to enjoy the day.

As soon as I was able to get out of bed and get ready, we went to a late breakfast at a little diner.  We even went to Target for a few must needs for the week, BUT this did me in!  I came home and had to go to bed.  I missed a few phone calls but gave my body the rest it needed so I can now be up watching the girls play and eat dinner and talk. 

I am thankful for everyday and that is why a birthday is a good day to celebrate in any special way that comes my way!

Great Surprises!

Woke up this morning surprisingly well!  Yesterday was an interesting Day 2 for me of the treatment.  The morning and afternoon was rocky with fatigue, dizziness and nausea.  Then I had to go to the hospital for my Neulasta shot so my parents picked me up and took me.  After the easiest shot I have had so far, I was feeling OK so since we were passing through Libertyville at about the time my brother would be opening up his restaurant we decided to go have a drink (Virgin Bloody Mary was awesome!!) and get a chance to see him.  It was so great to sit with my parents and my brother who give me so much love and courage to keep going forward.  On this short trip, I even had energy to go into my favorite store, The Present Moment, in which I found an excellent book that is written about breast cancer by a woman who was diagnosed at age 35 so it really hits home for me!!  I also got to see a former student I taught when she was in the 4th grade and now she is a senior in high school.  It was wonderful to reconnect with her and find out all the great things she is doing now.  This was another trip that showed me I find strength from the people God puts on this journey with me! I was even blessed with a visit from my dear friend Katie who is here for the weekend.  You know you are great friends when you can fall asleep (some of the best sleep I had had in the past three days) and she can still love you!  She and Keith chatted and then she went back to her parents after a short relaxing visit with me! It was all I needed to make the night so good for me!  Thanks Katie!

I hope the rest of my day goes well but I do still have to take all 8 pills again which tend to take me down again.  There will be good days in my future I just have to let the meds do their job.  Love to all! 

Chemo Treatment #3 is done!

Chemo #3 went as well as it could have.  Prayers for my port to keep allowing us to take blood out are needed because it is acting up but the wonderful nurses know how to trick things into working!  They are my angels! I also had an Ohio Angel with me to keep me distracted from the toxins going in me and chaos of this port acting up.  I cannot thank her enough for being there for me in heart and in person.  She drove in Thursday night with her two little ones to be able to come with me to chemo.  Our connection goes back to Kindergarten but it grew through the college years when our bond became unbreakable!  She is a strong person whose love strengthens me!  

The night was rough and I am still dealing with all the effects from the drugs which are like an awful sea-sickness that will never end!  I had trouble with noise and lights last night as well.  BUT it really was not horrible.

Today I have just taken all 8 of my pills that do various things but ultimately they will make me sick and dizzy.  I am thankful for such a wonderful husband who deals with all that comes his way through this journey!  He is my best friend and my husband!  His love gets me through all the scariest times and his strength pushes me through when it would be easiest to give up!  Thank you my love for everything!! He also gave me three little angels who are such troupers through this major change in their lives!! They are finding that it is fun to spend time with people they love so much when mommy is having chemo.  Those loved ones who care for our children are the BEST to us!!!  It makes it so easy to be away from them to have these treatments without any worries!  Love is the key to all of this and I thank all of you for showing me Love throughout each of these days!  I look forward to sharing in it for along time and spreading it throughout all those days!

The meds and fatigue are kicking in!  I am going off to "hibernate" for the next two days!  I pray that all of you have a wonderful weekend!  Enjoy it for me too!

Another night before Chemo

Another night before Chemo is here and I am finding myself dreading the coming of tomorrow. I know that the treatments are the way we can dissolve the Cancer from my body.... but they are also so horrible to my body. I am worried because I seem to have gotten a cold and do not want it to affect my ability to have this chemo tomorrow.

The house is quiet! The girls have all fallen asleep and I pray are having sweet dreams! They are such an amazing trio! I am so proud of how they are handling this change in their lives! They have become such caring little girls who have had to grow up a great deal these past few months. What a lucky mommy I am!

Kids and inspiration

Who ever knew that you could be lifted up by Kindergartners?  I was fortunate enough to spend my morning with our two full day kindergarten classes doing fun math games to reinforce the concepts we are teaching them.  I wore my wig for the first time this week and was so surprised when all the students started to compliment me.  My favorite was when one of them said to me in shock..."your hair grew fast!"  and when I said it was a wig they were shocked and said it looked like real hair.  This helped me to stop being so self-conscious of this wig and know that these little friends of mine accept me for who I am and not what I look like!  It was a fabulous morning and a great reminder why I still want to work even as this battle rages on in me!

Another wonderful surprise is that in my journal I have a list of my inspirations- those people in my life that are survivors of this cancer.  Over the past few days it has grown again as people share their stories with me.  This list is the one I go to when I am unsure of what will happen in the future!  Their stories stay in my heart and keep my spirits high as I wait for the unknown but live life to the fullest each day.  Thank you to all who have come before me and taught me how to fight!

smiles...

Kids say the best things!  I was given the gift of knowing that I making an impact on the students at my school by merely smiling throughout this journey I am on.  One of my friends sent me a message today letting me know that her daughter saw me at school and she noticed that I had a hat on.  But she ultimately recognized that I am smiling now just as I always have done.  It is good for them to see that even when someone is sick there is still something to smile about during the day.

I am so thankful for my friend letting me know this because it is another reminder of why it is good for me to be at work through this time but how good it is for the students and staff to see that this disease is not going to win!  They are part of the army that is helping me battle against this monster!

Smiles are some of my best medicine!  It is empowering for me to smile in the face of this scary monster inside of me because I know that the love and faith I have will prevail.  Smiles from others lightens my burdens and reminds me of all the people who are behind me.  Please know that a smile is a powerful tool and should be shared often because you never know who it might help.

Friday is almost here

Count down to the next treatment has begun...2 days and 16 hours.  Friday is a bittersweet day!  I will be able to say I have one more down but I know what it means to have that medicine in my body.  All I can do to stay positive is keep thinking about how these drugs will melt that ugly cancer from my body!  

It has been a good week for me!  Not much pain and no side effects to deal with so far.  I have been able to be at work and do all the family things we wanted to do.  I have learned to get all the things I need to do done now since I will not be able to do much as soon as chemo happens.  Next week will be a tougher one for me but I hope it is still one I get through with just limited energy.  

I am so lucky to have such a wonderful husband and three fantastic girls!  They are the greatest support to me and are learning how to live with the new me.  One of the twins had a great line tonight... she asked me if I still had eyes in the back of my head when I wear my wig.  I, of course, told her that I see everything no matter what I am wearing on my head!  :)  

Thank you to all of you who have followed me through this journey and helping my family and I in so many ways!  We are blessed to have you in our lives! 

This in-between time has been a positive one for me!  I have spent this weekend doing the things I know I won't be able to do next weekend.  We have been cleaning out the pantry and the bedrooms to make things work better in the house.  The laundry piled up so we have been working on that.  I had to rest throughout the days but I am so thankful for the energy I had to get the things I needed to done!

Today was a great day!  I was able to get to Sunday School which was so uplifting for me and really strengthened my spirit!  The group who meets for Adult Sunday School is such a wonderful, multi age group.  They are so compassionate and caring which is everything I need right now! 

Tonight we went out with two other couples for a fantastic dinner at Slyce.  We all had so much fun and the food was delicious!  It was so nice to be out with adults and not have to worry about anyones behavior!  :)  These are such great friends who have been a huge help with the kids throughout this journey! 

I am looking forward to this week as it should be the calm before the next storm.  I will hope to get all that is needed done and prepare for the next treatment. I will be 30% done after this treatment- I guess the math teacher in me is never far away!

My Amazing Parents

My parents are amazing!  I have known that my parents were wonderful but I now see it and don't take it for granted!  These two people brought me into this world and now they have to watch me go through a very destructive disease.  They have not faltered!  They have held Keith and I up when we wanted to give up.  They have made all our worries melt away!  I may be a positive person who has strength throughout this but it is really only because of these two wonderful people!  My mom has been so strong for the girls and kept them safe and happy throughout this journey when I could not be there.  My dad has helped on the science end of this all in looking up information and ensuring everyone is doing all they can do for me.  He has also been so good to help the girls and Keith get away from cancer for a while through planning ski trips to playing out in the snow.  I cannot say enough about how much I love my parents!  I only hope I can be just as good of a parent to my three girls as these two wonderful people have been to me!  Thank you Mom and Dad!  I love you so much!

Surprises come in different packages

Work went surprising well this week! I was not sure if my body would have enough to get me through this week both physically and emotionally BUT it did! I do feel that the wonderful energy that came from my students and my colleagues had a lot to do with this! It is amazing to walk down the hallway and be given so many hugs and smiles and positive words! That is some of the best medicine!

My students were the best for me because I was able to share with them that I had cancer but that I was going to be fine! They had some interesting questions and some fun critiques of my various head-ware. The faces they made when I had my wig on were priceless! It became a fun game for them to guess what I would be wearing before they came into my room! I have such a great group of students this year with even better parents who have been so supportive of me!

My colleagues have such beautiful hearts! Everyone who came into contact with me were amazed to see me at work and then were so happy to see me in such a positive place. If I can do anything with this disease I want to help everyone to know that it is not a death sentence! It is at times a chance to look at life differently and realize that so much of life is a mind-set! I was a positive person and I still am a positive person who is loving life even more than before! I remember when I was in the hospital after having Katelynn and thinking that I was in Heaven! I was so afraid that it would end. I have now faced so much more and still find myself in awe of the beautiful place I am in even if I do have cancer.

I celebreate the little things that are now huge blessings in making life great! I was able to go out to breakfast with a couple of wonderful friends this morning and have such an awesome time forgetting for a while about cancer. It is such a blessing to have people in my life who give me these gifts! I was also able to run errands that I had been trying to do all week but had no energy. These are a​c​c​o​m​p​l​i​s​h​m​e​n​t​s I used to take for granted but no more!

I pray that I find a way to stay positive even as the treatments take their toll on me. I am so thankful for all those who give me such wonderful positive energy throughout this journey!

Sleep

I JUST SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT!  :)

It has been months since I have not woken up in the middle of the night at least once.  I have struggled with sleep since my diagnosis but the various naps have kept me going.  It feels so exhilarating to have gotten a solid amount of sleep!!!!  I hope that this becomes more common!

Better day today!

I found my strength today! 

Yesterday was a physically and emotionally exhausting day!  It would have had to happen at sometime so I guess I am glad it is over! 

The loss of my hair is more than vanity!  It is like a loss of identity!  Your hair does so much more than look good when you do it in the morning!  I found today that it is what helps keep your collars down on a sweater.  I could not keep the collar on my sweater down today because there was nothing to hold it down.  I also get to feel the cold clammy feeling of a wet bald head.  It is not easy to keep your temperature up with no hair to keep the heat in.  Bad Hair days will never look the same for me again!  :)

I found my confidence in myself as I went to school again with a turban on because I could not face wearing my wig yet.  It is fun to show off all the different things I have found to cover my head now.  There is even a box of a couple more in route as you read.  It will be my year of hats!

Tomorrow is a new day and I look forward to each day as it gives me a new adventure!

Went back to work successfully!

Today was a big day for me because I went back to work today. The winter break is over and we are all back at school.

The groups of students I faced were great! They had some questions but were very accepting of the new me. I wore a hat that went with my outfit today instead of one of the wigs. I am just not getting used to having fake hair on my head yet. I am sure I will get over it but for now I am trying to stay comfortable.

It was good to see all the wonderful people who have helped me stay strong and cheered me on to this point. It is hard at times when I see people look at me with sympathy because I am still living and smiling through even the tough times. I know it is out of concern and love that they do this.

I was absolutely exhausted by the afternoon! I went to get the girls at my mom's and then went home. I relaxed for an hour while dinner warmed up which gave me some strength. It was a good tired though because it came from doing something instead of from just lying around the house. It is all just a change in the normal and we are all getting better about realizing it. The girls have been such troupers and my sweetheart is the BEST!!! He has picked up all the pieces I have not been able to complete!

Life is such a wonderful gift and I cherish everything about it!!! This is the silver lining! I am so thankful for all that I have been given these past two months!  I do not take things for granted and I realize how precious this time we are given is!  I want to make the most of all I am blessed with.  I am floating on all the prayers and am enveloped in all the love that is being shown on me!! 

New Year New look

There is a new looking Lynn in town.  I spent the New Year day morning with my family surrounding me having my hubby shave my head.  It came to the point with the hair loss when a half a baseball came out in the shower and it was time for me to take matters in my own hands.  I needed to find control in some way and it was in shaving the dying hair off on my own terms.  We saved a bag full and threw away much more.  We even laughed when a Mohawk was created and celebrated when it was all over.  The mirror is still shocking at times but with hats and wigs I will get through the lack of confidence I am finding at this time.  

Happy 2011 to all!

I have seen the year change surrounded with my girls and my husband- although the girls celebrated in different time zones :) Keith and I saw Chicago ring in the new year just the two of us! It has been a year to remember but one that we are glad to say good-bye to as we go for the year of the cure!

I wish all of you a healthy and happy New Year as you come along with me on the rest of this journey! 

This 2nd round of chemo is more typical than the first.  I am down for the count at times during the day but I am able to do more than last time!  I was able to go get my Neulasta Shot at the hospital and then go over to my parents for a little bit of time as they had a New Years Eve open house with so many wonderful family friends who have known me since I was as young as 4.  That house was a blast of good medicine for me.  Have you ever walked into a place and knew you would feel better when you left?  It was an uplifting feeling full of loving hugs and dear things that were said.  It was like I walked into a stadium full of my own personal cheerleaders!  I loved it!  I also got to hear about one of my most favorite things... other people's babies or baby news!!!  Our prayers are with all of these babies and parents who we love so much!

I do not know what the new year will bring but I have my dreams and prayers which I can only hope with half come true and I would be the luckiest and happiest person in the world!  Love to you all!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!