Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Summer has begun...for me!

I am hoping everyone had a wonderful 4th of July weekend!!  The Klunders were blessed with dear friends who encouraged us and helped us celebrate this weekend! 

I truly could have crawled into bed on Friday and not gotten out of bed the rest of the weekend.  This uncertainty of my diagnosis has really thrown me for a loop!  I struggled to find that positive attitude since the first Wednesday appointment that was canceled.  I keep saying, "I wanted it all to be over!!!"  I had an expectation of this cancer being gone once I checked off all the things I was advised to do from the beginning.  The control was taken away from me when this pathology issue came up.  I did find it funny to think of God chuckling when I realized that I was trying to control this whole situation still and found I was not even in the drivers seat.  I have given all my worries up to God and am feeling more peace than I have all weekend.  This is so much bigger than I can handle and He will take it for me.

I am again enjoying a more typical summer day today.  I woke up and got myself ready without any help.  Keith got the girls ready for the first day of dance camp.  I took them off to the dance studio for a camp that lasts for 3 hours.  I will pick them up soon to go and feed them lunch... they will be starving I am sure since they have not worked as hard in weeks.  Then Katelynn has her first tutoring session this afternoon and by 5 pm I should be home.  I am sure I will be absolutely exhausted but I am so happy to have a more "normal" day!!!  It is so great to be a summer stay at home mom.

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