....time....

Time is one of those four letter words that can be both good and bad...
I am sitting here realizing how much time feels different in all kinds of situations!!  Tomorrow is the last day of summer break for my children and it feels like it has flown by so quickly but then when I think back to my surgery which was at the beginning of summer it feels like an eternity. 

It is funny how some times the time flies and other times it drags its heals and forces us to face the situation one way or another!!

Radiation is another strange way time is both going fast and slow... I have completed 10 whole treatments.  When it comes to going into the office and seeing all the wonderful people involved in my treatment the time is flying by and I know I will be sad to say good-bye to them all.  Then when it comes to the actually treatments and the side-effects it feels like time is going soooo slow!!  I have 18 more to go and I am having some redness and some discomfort on the skin occurring.  With less than half of the treatments done I am praying that the skin irritation slows down but that is highly unlikely.  Although I am keeping it at bay with all the ointments and lotions they recommend.  September 9th is the last day of radiation and I am planning to CELEBRATE!!!  Other than the Herceptin which is like an insurance policy for me to ward off this cancer I am done with all the treatments!!!  Although I am graduating cancer treatments to begin taking the drug Tamoxifen for the next 5 years. 

Time has flown since the twins were born.  To be honest when we found out I was having twins I was in pure shock for weeks!!  Then when the pregnancy went so well I was hopeful I had enough strength to get through their delivery and first year of life.  I did that and am proud to say loved every moment of their first year!!  I have enjoyed each of the last four and a half as well -- although some a little less than others, like the 3s to 4s could have been a little less stressful and tantrums.  To know that on Thursday morning I will be putting them on the school bus for the first time is bitter sweet!  I am excited for them and so thankful that I am here to see it and be a part of it!!  I am also so amazed that Katelynn is going to be going to 4th grade on Wednesday morning!!  Her first four years of school have flown by!!  I cannot believe all my kids are growing up so fast!!