I have been frustrated lately because I have not felt well and I have not been able to do all I wanted to do over break. I am also realizing how much my upcoming birthday is affecting me! It is not that I am getting older... birthdays are actually exciting to me in the sense that I am getting to see another one after having faced the possibility of dying just over a year ago. My dismay is coming from what I wanted to be able to do for all of you! My gratitude for all the support and help you have given to me over these past 13 months has been priceless BUT I wanted to try to pay it all back. I wanted to through the BIGGEST bash I could think of and find a special way to thank each and every one of you. I wanted to be able to handout a ton of invites and have one memorable celebration surrounded by all of my "angels"! Being so sick and getting behind in all other areas of life has made this dream nearly impossible! I am hoping that I will find a new way to let each of you know how special you are to me!
I will now turn 37 in a quiet manner BUT the girls will not let me get away without having a cake... it is not a birthday without cake in the eyes of a six year old.
Medical Update: I called Dr. Posner's office yesterday and was able to talk with Dr. Posner. He is sending me for a CT scan to give me peace of mind. I am so relieved to be able to go in and even just rule out anything else being wrong. I will have this scan done early Monday morning before work.
It is good to be me and I am still smiling through my day... although this week I am smiling between coughs which lessens my smiles that may be why I am more crabby and frustrated.
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