This was not exactly how I pictured spending my 2nd full day of 2012 BUT it was necessary!
At 3:00 PM Keith and my mom decided it was best to take me into the ER to have my choking cough and my horribly painful throat, nose and ears checked out. I was in so much pain and finding no relief from any over the counter med. I was coughing and choking while feeling so much pain from my ears and throat. I was pretty depressed as well because this was not how I pictured spending my break and my first winter without cancer. I was so down because I was feeling that I had become even worse than I was one year ago while I was dealing with chemo and cancer!! Let's just say I was a complete mess when Keith got the kids and I in the car to drop them off with my mom and drive on to the Grayslake ER.
As I have said throughout this past year, it is the people I meet on this journey who make things easier... and it was true even for this experience. I was in tears when I got into the doors. The girls at the desk were so kind and patient with me. The nurses were wonderful and helped me relax throughout the whole process. The radiology techs were the kindest ladies I could have imagined and the doctor was so thorough. This doctor even brought that small, small world into play when he was checking into what I did outside the house for work in order to write me a "light duty" letter for the next five days. He happens to live in Libertyville near Keith's parents and has kids in High school who have friends who went to Oak Grove. I was given another batch of angels to help me along through a tough time and come back to the positive side of life again!
While I was there I had an EKG which allowed me to know that my heart is perfectly fine. I had a chest xray to find out that other than the ports for my "water balloons" my lungs are clear. I do not have strep according to a rapid strep test that the nurse did and was able to swab without too much discomfort which is a small miracle since my throat was in so much pain! All of these tests were good to have done because they allowed me to know that my body is still functioning correctly!
I have been working through intense fear of finding new cancer whenever I have a strange twinge. I was probably the most concerned about having lung cancer since I have had so many tough respiratory issues throughout these past two months. I can rationally say that I have had some tough colds and that is why I have been sick. But then my emotions come into play and fear brings upon all the irrational concerns of a new cancer! Fear is my new battle to fight!
I am doing much better this morning after taking one dose of the meds so I look forward to getting even better by this coming weekend! Thank God Keith and my mom got me into the ER!! I am so blessed to have them looking out for me! I am so blessed to have all of the angels in my life! Thank you ALL!
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