Oh it would not b the day before surgery for me without some kind of crisis!!! Storms rolled through and the power went out this morning at 6AM. It is lunchtime and we still do not have power and have no idea when we will get it back.... last summer we were out for over a week and I am not looking forward to losing all the food I have all over again!! Last month when I was getting ready for surgery we had the dishwasher die on us and we replaced it the day before I went into surgery. Life is never boring BUT the way I deal with these things have definitely changed with this journey! I wasted so much of life worrying and being so anxious or even mad about things I have no control over... it only took cancer to learn to roll with all that is thrown my way. I even kind of make it a game of "Let's see how this will end up."
Getting ready for this surgery has been a game of changing the way I approach it... The memory of the previous surgery is one that I am not so fond of right now!! Those 10 hours under anesthesia really took a toll on the WHOLE me! SO now I am trying to think of this one as if I were going in for a root canal rather than a surgery. I cannot tell you how good it will be if this works because I am so tired of having to have these open wounds packed with gauze and then spend the rest of the day trying to keep my clothes dry from all the fluid that comes out... We have become good about making other things help in this area!
The girls are such troopers and I am proud to say that their routine has not been too altered by all these surgeries! They are in Vacation Bible School this week which is helping them not to really think about me going to surgery again! Only one of the twins is having some anxiety about me having another surgery.... She hugs me all the time and tells me she does not want me to have surgery again! She is really why I have come up with the Root canal analogy because she understands the dentist can be a little painful but it is over quickly. This has seemed to reassure her and has even helped me!
I look forward to the day all of this is past me and I can see all I had to go through to be where I will be! Life is a precious thing to me and I love living it everyday! I am just looking for the chance to not worry if I have energy enough for everything!!!
In 12 hours I will be in surgery and hopefully on my way to a FULL recovery!!
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