All of these things came with ups and downs for me. I was so happy to lose all the drains in just over 2 weeks out of surgery. It is still a concern that I could accumulate some pockets of fluid but we know they can deal with that in the office if it happens. The wounds were my biggest emotional hurdle to overcome. I was absolutely terrified when Dr. Lu checked these two spots in the office and started to explain that there were two ways to deal with them. One way was to go back into the OR and have him clean the areas up and re-stitch it all up. The preferred choice for him was to have us take care of the two areas to help them heal on their own. Nurse Keith (It really has gone to his head that he can do all these new medical things for me!) has to clean the area each morning and pack it with saline soaked gauze. We are so blessed to have a Home Health care nurse come out twice a week and so now she will be helping us work with these wounds to keep a close eye on them.
The toughest event of the week is the loss of my grandma! Receiving the call from my dad telling me that Grandma was in her last hours of life was so heart-breaking! I had not been able to get down to see her for over a month because of the many events of the end of the school year and the surgery. She had called me the day before surgery and left a wonderful message but we had not had a chance to talk since. I have no doubt she knew I loved her but I did not get to tell her these words which was what I struggled with the most! I am thankful she is at peace and does not have to endure anymore hospital stays, kidney dialysis, pain, heart problems, or anything else she had to deal with these past few years. My grandma was an amazing lady who I have had 37 years with to learn about unconditional love and the power of the family circle. She kept us all connected and that is a small miracle since there were 6 of her children with 4 of them having spouses, 17 grandchildren with 10 spouses and 18 great-grandchildren with one more on the way. She showed us all how love made everything better!
I am finding a way to move more and more each day... Keith even had me walk all through Mariano's (my favorite grocery store in Libertyville/ Vernon Hills) this week which was a tough challenge as I was still unable to stand up straight BUT I did it and felt like I had finally crossed one finish line with many more to come!
It will be a tough weekend and beginning of the week as we will have the wake and the funeral but I hope to help make it a celebration of one of the most amazing ladies I have ever met! It has been hard on the girls but they have had so many losses in their young lives I know they will do well in this experience as well.
Prayers for strength and healing are much appreciated!
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