The two wounds on the right inner thigh are taking their own sweet time to close up. One is doing better than the other, and the nurse is thinking the doctor is going to have to clean out the worse one. Dr. Lu said that was a possibility I would have to go back to the OR for an out-patient procedure. I had such a horrible experience with the Anesthesiologist I am terrified! I know it sounds so childish but the experience was truly the worse I have had to endure... I was yelled at for having such bad veins by this doctor and scolded for not having something done before that morning. I truly still have nightmares because my last thought before surgery was she was going to kill me in the OR since she hated me so much!
One other "wound is the heartbreak I am still working through with the loss of my Grandma! I know I am so blessed to have had her in my life for so long and even more blessed that my children were able to have her in their lives. BUT it does not make me miss her less! I am so proud of myself for being able to have had the strength and courage to go up and share the memories and lessons she taught us all! The services were AWESOME with more than 500 people coming through the wake and packing the church full for the funeral. My children are amazing to me because death has been so much a part of their young lives starting with the loss of our dear Katie Beth a few years ago as well as the death of my other Grandma last year. Sarah was so sweet! She would walk past the casket and Grandma and say "Hi Gram!" & "Love you Grandma!" Then when we were leaving the wake for the night Sarah could not leave until she said "goodnight" and "Goodbye Grandma." Katelynn struggled so much throughout the funeral! She was the closest to Grandma and had her for the longest amount of time. She was Grandma's first great-grandchild so she got the best of Grandma when she was still healthy and living a full life. Lindsey did well even though there was a great deal of still time and the funeral was a tough but she did it! Before we could leave for home on the day of the funeral the girls asked to return to the cemetery to check on Grandma and we saw that they were able to get her in the ground and cover her with dirt. They began to plan our next trip down when we are going to go to the Peotone cemetery and then to the Wilton Center Cemetery to be able to see both grandma's then to the farm to visit Great Grandpa. These girls are amazing!... They are also planning Grandma's Angel day for next July.
I am so blessed for so many reasons and I am slowly coming out of this deep dark place I went to throughout this recovery period! I am having to ask for so much help and this really is not what I know how to do! I help others! Please pray these wounds heal up and that God gives me the strength to deal with all that is going on in my life!
Thank you for all your help and support!
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