I was reminded today that I AM NOT IN CONTROL!!!  We dropped the girls off at Smiling Stars camp and then drove to the oncologists office to have the nurses check my port because I have been in a great deal of pain in that area.  The nurses were concerned it needed to come out... so I saw one of the other doctors (Dr. Chung was at the hospital doing rounds), Dr. Ahmed who was very nice and he sent me to get an ultrasound to make sure there is not a clot.  This was a fascinating test because I got to see the blood flowing through the veins in my arm.  The ultrasound tech let me know that I looked good and she did not find any clots.  The port does have scar tissue which one of the doctors thought might be the reason I am having some pain.  This adventure took all morning which meant I did not get anything I wanted to get done.  I found myself crying in the oncology office because I was not ready to go into the hospital and have this port removed right now.  It would have thrown all my plans off BUT I believe that was God's plan to make sure I have learned all my lessons.  The one on the top of the list is that I am not in control!!!

I am fine and we made it down to our pre-surgery meeting with Dr. Lu (the plastic surgeon) and his nurse.  We got my prescriptions and asked any questions we had for Dr. Lu.  It was a very good appointment and I am feeling better about going into surgery.

I am still feeling pain in the port area but I am happy to know that there is not a clot to worry about.  Tomorrow is my big day of getting ready for surgery and pack the kids for their grandma and papa stay!!!

Today is very special because it is our 13 year anniversary!!!!  I have been married for 13 years to my high school sweetheart who I am so in love with!!!  He has also been my night in shining armor this year because he has helped to save me this whole past year!  I love you honey!