One week to go...

Pre-op physical is complete!  I went to see Dr. Jason this afternoon with Keith to complete the physical I needed before I can have surgery next week.  We had a great visit with Dr. Jason.  I have to go tomorrow to have blood drawn for a liver check and then I will be all clear.  We really do have a fantastic team of doctors on our side!  Jason is such a fantastic doctor as well as a person.  He spent half an hour with us catching up on all that has happened since the last time he saw me.  Keith is also his patient so we are all comfortable talking and we had some good laughs...First he asked me if I drank alcohol or did drugs.  I looked at him and said "would you consider morphine doing drugs since that was the pain meds I had at home?"...  Then my favorite was when Dr. Jason was asking more of the questions and he got to "Are you sexually active?"  Keith and I said at the same time... "No.  Who has energy for that?"  All three of us had a good chuckle over this!

Life has changed in so many ways!  I cannot wait to have energy to carry the laundry baskets up to the bedrooms.  I look forward to going for walks and not worrying about whether I should go any farther or if I am going to be able to make it home.  I want my house to run like it should and not do the minimum.  

As I get closer to surgery I am still finding myself so nervous about it!  I keep asking everyone whether I will wake up again?  I am not worried about the pain after or recovering because I have been beaten down so many times this past 6 months that I know I will be fine in the end... it really is the surgery and going under that is scaring me out of my mind!  I have been praying for peace to come to me when I think about surgery but my heart and my head do not seem to agree.  I was looking at Sarah's preschool report card and I began to cry because I want to see these girls grow up.  I am so proud of these three beauties who do so well in all they try.  I want to see them meet each milestone of life!  May God bless me with a long life full of memories, laughter and love