Dear God,
Why do I let my worries consume me and feel that I have to find the answers all by myself? Why have I not learned that there is always an answer when I ask for help? When am I going to learn????
...This is how I am feeling right now after a dear friend (and a chosen sister) insisted to help me today! My friends have done so much for me over these past 10 months and even before that! And they are still coming through for me in my weakest hours!!! Kim and Wendi are who I am speaking of today but there are others that I could talk about by just changing their names! Kim took the twins on Friday afterschool for us so that Keith could have all our trees cut down (NO we are not reenacting the Mr. T incident- but rather getting rid of the weeds known as Cottonwood trees!). This was a huge help since I did not want the girls to get in the way of all the cutting and mess. Then after school I was able to pick up the older two and we met Wendi and her boys over at Kim's. These friends were able to make a Friday fun and end with laughter and togetherness! It was a great day!
Yesterday (Saturday) we went to the anticipated Ms. Laura and Ms. Carolyn Halloween bash!! The girls looked adorable and there was so much fun to be had! It was a blast for everyone BUT mommy's body was done before anyone else was ready to go. It got cold and by the time we were leaving there was not a part on my body that did not ache. Keith was great and helped me get into a hot shower to relax and found my comfiest pjs to wear. I settled into the couch for a night of TV and resting with the girls. It was adorable because at one point the twins were asleep on either side of the couch while Keith and I were in the middle of them and Katelynn was on the floor lounging and watching Funniest Home Videos. All was right in our world- except for my pain. I went to bed and slept on and off all night.
This morning I woke up to a body that was not working well. It was the day we were planning to go apple picking and Keith was renting the chipper to get rid of these branches. We had a full plate BUT I was not able to do any of it. The girls were so disappointed that we had to cancel going apple picking. I was so guilt ridden that I was the one making it all not possible. Then Wendi calls and will not take "No" for an answer. They were going apple picking still and they wanted to take the girls with. I was worried this was too much to ask BUT Wendi would not hear of it! So Katelynn and Sarah are on their way to the Orchard with their friends while Lindsey and Keith are off to get the chipper and work all day together. I am just about the luckiest person I know!!! The love of all of you is amazing and I really would not be here right now without it!
... If I could learn my lesson I would have less stress and guilt built up in me! I have learned so many lessons but there are still so many I need to remind myself of each day! I guess that is what life is all about! We are constantly learning and growing no matter our age! I just have to trust and ask for help so that the enjoyment of life increases for me!
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